What should I do with my life
Last week, I had a plan. I was going to be in Italy this summer and come back and start culinary school. Last week, I was ready to give up my graphic design career. This week, I'm not so sure. I learned on Sunday that I have significance no matter what I do. Fine. Great! But now I need to DOOOO something with my significance. I don't want to go back to Hugo's. The lady who was training me left me alone throughout my shift without telling me where she was going or what I should do. I had to ask other people what to do. It was weird. I want to work in a nice kitchen with stainless steel and dishes that take skill. I don't want to fry burgers and microwave rice. But Hugo's is an actual restaurant with real dishes, like, tuna filet and thai chicken soup and stuff. So, does it get any better than this?? I haven't given it enough time, I know. I know that's what you'll say.
My mom wants me to stick with graphic design now. I agree that I like the pay and prestige that goes along with graphic design ("prestige" because it's white-collar work), but I'm not convinced that I'm good enough at it to do it for a living. I applied to 20 more job postings today and expect to hear back from zero of them. I don't know what to do with my life.
Either way, I see myself as having to go back to school. And I only have enough money for one. So, I have to choose.
bah.
2 comments:
food service is weird like that. food service workers are weird like that, I know that feeling you felt at Hugo's. it's a "sink or swim" kind of feeling and it's awkward. I've been doing a lot of introspection myself, and I think that the best way to really find your place is to get out and experience things. And that's what I'm trying to do. I'm reading a book by Max Lucado called "Cure for the Common Life" and he talks about finding your Sweet Spot, that thing that God created you to do whether it be food service, graphic design, or teaching abroad. It's about learning the unique things about YOU that God made specifically for the purpose He has for you in His body. I'm only to chapter 4. But it's awesome. I recommend it.
Significance.
Signify.
Sign.
Sam Fagan. (Your Signature)
Energy, complexity, Graphic Design, pride, seeker, fragile, etc... (Some of the things you signify in my mind)
I think that significance has a lot to do with the things that you signify to yourself, and to others. As you said in your previous post, these aren't the same to everyone. I think that the absolute truth about who you are is not the "deeper meaning." It is the shallow one. Who someone is or even who a group of people are sticks-and-stones-wise is always rather simple and shallow. Words on a page (or a blog) can not hold depth at all compared to the many different things they cause people to think. I don't know what you signify to God. I don't know all that you signify to yourself, or to your mother, or even all that you signify to me. All of those are significant to me though, and all are a part of your significance as far as I can see.
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